I know weight is a touchy subject. Especially in January when most of us are a little rounder after December celebrations. Mention it, and husbands’ pupils dilate. They proceed to fake deafness and exit the room swiftly. Friends (other than Jill) frown, flick their wrists and become blatant liars. “I can’t see a thing, you hide it so well”, they say. In an age where everyone is body positive, I just can’t be right now.
2018 WAS A HEAVY YEAR
Equilibrio was inspired by my sudden exit from the corporate world. I was exhausted and unhappy and needed to make a change. After renovating our home and taking a break to figure out what came next, I created this site, with the tag line “in pursuit of balance”, hoping that it may inspire me, give me flexibility and morph into something more eventually. And it did.
Last year was a mammoth year for Equilibrio. Jill and I not only continued with the content side of our “online magazine” but started to come up with ways to monetize the blog. This included affiliate programs and building our own online store.
We worked extremely hard, mostly 7 days a week and this took a toll on our health. Our constant exhaustion meant that we exercised less, something we’ve always been passionate about, and paid less attention to our diet. We tried time and again to get back on track but failed desperately. And so, a few extra kilos and lack of fitness became our new norm.
BODY POSITIVITY CERTAINLY HAS ITS PLACE
Bless JLo and Kim Kardashian for bringing booty back and making it fashionable to have a bum after decades of “heroine chic”. I believe that if you’re healthy and feel good, you shouldn’t worry about your size. There are many, many gorgeous women in the world who are not thin. As long as you are the best version of you, you have all the reason to be body positive and not conform to “magazine standards”. In a world with constant criticism, a bit of self-love is very important.
WHY I WANT TO TAKE ACTION
Instead of embracing my new curves and being body positive, here’s why I’m determined to regain my former athletic (I’ve never been skinny) shape. I’m not saying everyone must lose weight and workout, these are just my own, personal reasons.
1. I can’t afford to replace all my clothes. I love fashion and have a fabulous wardrobe. If I don’t lose the weight I can’t wear it comfortably.
2. When I eat badly and drink too much, I can’t sleep. I’m a terrible sleeper even when I have healthy habits. Eating badly and going to bed at odd times makes it worse. Being tired all the time starts a vicious cycle of eating badly-not sleeping-eating badly.
3. I love being fit! Besides helping me sleep and building lean muscle, the feeling after finishing a race or achieving a goal is wonderful. My stress levels are lower and my energy levels are higher.
4. I want to be the best version of me. The whole reason I started Equilibrio was find a work-life balance. That included being healthy and happy. Although Jill and I are proud of our Equilibrio achievements, last year was not a healthy year and we both want to change that.
LETTING IT GO & STARTING AGAIN
What’s done is done. And beating ourselves up about it won’t achieve a thing. Although Jill’s hilarious WhatsApp messages with an array of exploding and swearing emojis do make me laugh out loud, we need to put a plan in place, and it needs to be part of our business objectives.
At our recent “Equilibrio strategy session” the first 2019 objective, before growing the business, was: regain personal health and balance. Easier said than done for two A-types. We’re going to have to be strict with ourselves. Be in bed by 10pm, up early to exercise, and not work until the middle of the night. This will sometimes mean that we need to pass on opportunities and push plans out. We also have to start from scratch. Once marathon runners, we have started off with 5k runs a few days a week and will soon walk/run our first 10k race.
So, here’s to regaining balance in 2019. Not just a resolution but a business objective. Maybe all businesses need to take the health of their team into account when they set objectives?